Embracing Everyday

But, it may all be official by the end of 2010.

I have been doing my best to keep it all together. You see, one of the things  that I asked D to do – before we go back home to him – is for him to just talk to my parents.

D only interacted with my folks and family for about 22 times since we got married. My parents like to give suggestions – which he interprets as “meddling”. I have been telling him countless of times – that’s just the way they are. But, they always respected my decisions – no matter what.

It’s been almost five months – and I’m still waiting for him to just make peace with my parents. I figured that – no matter how awful my folks are to him (if he thinks of them that way), they must have done something right for him to love me in the first place. Don’t you think?

He has visited us here for 3 times since February – but he only met up at the clubhouse of the village. And a couple of times – we just met up and spent a day or hours just pretending that nothing is wrong. I’ve been living a farce – how sad is that?

To be honest, I just want everything to work out for Sky. For him.

However, it’s been countless nights that I cry myself to sleep – hoping that everything will work out for us. I’m even crying my eyes out as I write this. I don’t know if it’s even wise that I just blurt it out in the open. I just haven’t been able to talk to anyone about this and I need a little space in my heart – or else, I’ll explode.

My apologies for my rant. Pray for me, that I pass my Physical Therapy exams this year. I need it so bad – for our future. My first steps in being an unofficial single parent….